Just need to write something

Wow, my son is overwhelmed by the excitement of having company. He couldn’t go to bed last night, finally fell asleep around 11:45, woke around 8 this morning, by noon he was a whirling dervish and Tasmanian devil compined, sprinkled with a little bit of hellion so I put him back in bed. Two hours later I gave him a ten minute time limit so it didn’t feel like l was totally giving in. I just couldn’t mentally bear the thought of putting him back in bed again and listening to the screaming any longer. We are headed to the pool and then to a Royals game, tonight should be fun. If you see a breaking news cast live from Royals stadium tonight regarding a mother that has spontaneously combusted, you can be sure it was me. 

Motherhood is not for wimps…

Just another day?

Woke up this morning to see that it was after seven and my husband was gone, I thought he’d left without saying goodbye, he never does that. I quickly realized that the shower was running and he was just late, but all was right in the world again.

I wonder what today will bring? I am going to Cameron, MO to buy some more bulk foods, like wheat, yeast, and dough enhancer. I am completely out of yeast and have just about used up my first 50lb. bag of wheat. My husband wondered if this whole bread baking thing was just another one of my grandiose ideas. Much to his delight, it was not. I think we’ve only had to buy bread from the store twice in the past 8 months. The newness has worn off a bit so we don’t devour the loaves as they come out of the oven the way we used to, that’s a plus.

The painting is coming along, have to finish the kids’ bathrooms. Finished striping Mesha’s room, got her bathroom cut in and we are changing out fixtures. It’s feels good to get some of this done. Next up, living room hallway, then PICTURES! We’ve been in this house just over three years and I have yet to fully commit to it, as evidenced by the lack of family pictures on the walls. Now is the time.

So I guess I am just wondering, is today going to be just another day? Or can I find a way to let God in a little more? Can I let Him into the mundane, to the random, to the moments when my children are screaming, can I let Him in to the laundry? I know that He can make the mundane magnificent, the question is, will I let Him? Tomorrow will tell…

Jon & Kate…leaving out the 8?

Are they neglecting the children’s future for their own selfish reasons for divorce? The following was my status on twitter:

#Jon & Kate splitting, nvr watched show but I call BS, shouldn’t b allowed 2 take easy way out, u have 8 kids, FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT, mk it work

Next comes responses on facebook:

  1. Absolutely – instead of canceling the show and counseling, they’re opting for the paycheck and divorce. And they just renewed their vows last August. Glad they got that free trip to Hawaii in.
  2. She was mean to her husband anyhow…too bad they milked the world for what they could first. Guess they are taking the easy way out.
  3. its all about the money with them!!
  4. Easy way out, Ro, I agree… Their first mistake was “putting their kids first”… if there’s anything I’ve learned you put God first, and take care of your marriage, THEN, the kids will work themselves out… happy, loving parents = happy kids. Nothing does more for a kids self esteem than seeing their parents love each other and respect each other… just my .02
  5. you are so right on there!
  6. We don’t know ANYTHING about them. We only see what filters through the producers and the paparazzi. We need to pray for this family and not armchair judge.
  7. I didn’t judge… I just know what I know…they said themselves last night on TV that they BOTH put their kids FIRST. Several times, over and over… “my kids come before anything else”, etc etc…. As a matter of fact, I don’t see where anyone judged them here. She WAS mean to her husband (he said last night that he lost himself and let her run over him), it’s obvious they were opting for the paycheck and divorce over their ailing marriage…
  8. I totally agree with you Ro…they kept saying they are splitting up for the kids ~ total crap!! It is just an easy way out…they did not want to make an effort to change their own ways and I guess money talked louder then their love for eachother. I think it is the worst thing for their kids! I don’t mean to judge, but just from the way he was talking in the interview, he is ready for something new (I’m only 32 yrs old)…lose yourself, that was a family it all about. You gain so much more when you lose yourself and care for others.

I agree with the above comments, I think marriage is hard…without cameras, without 8 kids, without LOTS of money, marriage is hard. No, we don’t know these people, really. But I think it would be silly to assume that we don’t know “anything” about them, in fact, we know quite a bit. Even if you don’t know the show, chances are someone you know does and people talk about it all the time. Which is the point of reality tv, if the whole thing was a farce no one would tune in, they are real, what they are going through is real, life is hard. The fact that they opened their lives up to the entire world does, in fact, give anyone the right to critique, judge, point fingers, make accusations…isn’t that the entertainment draw? People have been making their opinons of this family since day one, and they have been banking on it…

Secondly, I think it’s wrong to judge. The whole thing sickens me. It makes me wonder why anyone would invite this drama into their lives. Is nothing sacred anymore? I love kids, I have kids and chose to spend my time away from them at a hospital that cares exclusively for children. I believe that many mothers and wives feel the same way and are quick to voice thier opinion, myself included. There are still a few questons that need to be answered before we can really come to any conclusions. Do Jon & Kate have a contact with TLC that they are legally bound to? Or worse…Do Jon & Kate have a marriage contract that allows Jon to see other women off camera as long as he fills his show obligations on camera? Has thier marriage been a farce for along time, and we, the fooled, are just now finding out? Is this all for the money?
As a woman and mother I say, fight until you bleed for the kids, for the man, for the dream. Keep the family together, at all costs. I hope with all hope they save the marriage, that they love their children, and that money hasn’t wrapped it’s steely, unforgiving fingers around their throats. I hope it doesn’t pull this entire family under. In any case, should you care to watch the sinking ship for yourself it seems you won’t be able to do that just yet. TLC is pulling the plug, for now…
GODSPEED JON & KATE, and all the eight.

Gratitude…

Have to start this again. Here are my top five:

5. My home. Lately we’ve been contemplating moving, we go back and forth on this, there are so many renovations we want to do here, the market being a good time to buy, feeling cramped…but alas, we have decided, once again, to stay put. Sometimes it’s hard not to look at what others have and want it, and I believe it’s good to work hard and have a nice life, but it’s easy to get caught in the cycle of, “more.”  It seems a bit like a disease to me, that cycle, and it feeds on itself until it becomes this huge growth on our souls that takes an act of God to remove it. I started to get on that ferris wheel, until I realized the carney working the ride was nowhere as cute as I had imagined from a distance. I am really feeling called to live a life content with less, to minimize the distractions, to just do life, more sincerely, more simply. I’m not there yet, but I have my eyes fixed on it, and it grows closer everyday.

4. My dog. He’s a sturdy, reliable little pup who loves me to death. He is soft and cuddly, and right now he’s not licking, which is a bonus. He was pretty anxious with our little foster kitten around, with places he couldn’t go and not being able to sit by me because the kitten was always looking for a teet on his tummy, that did not set well with him. He seems back to himself now, but I still miss kitty a bit. He is with an awesome family down the street who’s in love with him, it’s all good…

3. Excercise. Wow, it feels good… when it’s over. Don’t get me wrong, getting there is a pain in the arse. The beginning is usually pretty good, the middle stinks, the end drags, but when it’s over, now that’s my favorite part. I am also very glad to have my husband joining me for a few classes, he rocks. Exercise helps me find balance.

2. Balance. This is my ultimate goal and a word that has really taken on a whole new importance in my life lately. Balance seems to be the key to successful living. There is a balance in relationships, in activity, in work and in play. Lately, if I feel there is an area of my life that seems off, I ask myself about the balance. What is not getting a proper place, and what could use more of my attention? It seems that God plays a very important part in my “balancing act.” Regardless of what they day may bring, if I reconcile it to Him, and take him at His word, it all falls into place and he restores me.

1. Children. They are my most prized possession. The way they smile and laugh throughout the day. The way my almost three year old throws a fit and I have to pick him and help him work through it. The way he is an angel 10 seconds later (or 10 hours). I feel so extremely blessed to have been given the right to mother these children. Each one of them different and special, each one so unique. It’s God’s way of showing us how much He loves us. I think He whispers, “These children are to teach you about grace, and to see how it feels to love just a fraction of how much I love you.” It is quite amazing…

Godspeed

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I love the rainy nights…

Had a complicated weekend, work was strange and wonderful all at the same time. Being a nurse isn’t always rewarding and fulfilling, and when working with kids sometimes it can be downright  sad. This Saturday night it was simply a bummer. I won’t and can’t go into detail, but after leaving my daughter Em crying because we gave away the kitten that afternoon, and dealing with some work issues, I was ready to hang up my nursing cap when I left that night.

After some much need rest, all felt right in the world again. I went back to work feeling refreshed and ready to “give-back” to the community. I have some great co-workers that I feel comfortable and safe talking to, that are very encouraging and kind. Thanks ladies… 

Tonight I pulled myself into Aiyannas class for a brutal beating and new outlook on life. Hard-core exercise is the best medicine I have ever given myself. It gives me energy, it gives me hope, it helps me sleep. After class I joined the ladies from moms club at Los Compos and SIX on the square. We had good conversation and lots of laughs. I love the fact that this amazing group of women and mothers have really bonded and I enjoy hanging out with them. I feel like we have our own little desperate housewives of Clay county group going…HA! It’s great.

Lastly I will say a few more things about Calvin Klein’s new ad in downtown Manhattan. It disgusts me. I am sickend by the lack of concern for America’s youth. I can guarantee you that a sweet little old lady isn’t running that ad campaign. There is nothing in that ad about wholesomeness, nothing about love, and everything that lacks integrity.

CK…if you wanna sell my daughter jeans, if you want my money, take down the sign. Put up an ad that shows teens huddled around xboxes and cheetos, girls standing at the ball field fence watching the boys hit in the winning run, jeans in a pile on the swimming pool deck and teens splashing in the neighborhood pool, how about wading in a creek with jeans rolled up catching craw-dads…CK, help my teens, help your teens, be the best they can be, let them be kids for a little bit longer, allow youth to bask and glow in the dog days of summer. Quit telling them they need to be sexually active to be cool…unless of course you are planning a raunchy maternity line. 

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The Caring Cop…

Must read! This “Randy Peterson” fella is my brother in law. He’s obviously pretty awesome…

Hansen: Urbandale officer, employee rescue ducklings from sewer | DesMoinesRegister.com

Oh Snap!

Thief dons a snuggie to do the crime, read more here: 

snuggie

Ahhhhh…

I’m sitting in the garage in an old green chair that didn’t sell in our garage sale. I’m kind of glad though and here’s why:

It’s amazingly comfortable, although it lacks a certain aesthetic appeal, it’s green and brown and ripped to shreds from my cat using it as a scratching post. It reminds me of those ladies suits that were stylish in the 50’s and came back briefly a few years ago…what are those called…? Tweed, that’s it. It’s also Ethan Allen, and did I mention that it’s comfortable? Actuually, it’s the epitomy of comfort, and right now serves as the most amazing throne from which to view a late spring thunderstorm in my garage. Yeah, you’re right, I look like total white trash, and it’s awesome. Two of my neighbors just drove by and waved, wish I could be a fly on the inside of their car window, would love to hear that conversation; “Wow, hon, she looks really comfortable, let’s just hope she doesn’t get too comfy there, we have company coming next week.”

It also represents a time in my life that wasn’t so comfortable. When I was in my early twenties I was going to college and raising a little girl alone. I had a couch, one that my parents had given me, one that I remembered getting brand new as a girl, about age 5…very puffy, very floral. When the offer for a matching couch and chair came in I said great, not expecting too much, but definitely not expecting comfort or Ethan Allen. The people in my church really took care of us, we never, ever, wanted for a thing. God’s people are good people, I know you hear lots of conflicting things on the news and radio, but those people aren’t God’s people, they are pretenders. 

But I digress…as I sit in this chair I am reminded of a time when not having a lot didn’t really matter. I just wanted to pass that next test and take Mesha to the movies. We had some good times back then, her and I, and now that she’s sixteen, I think I may be the last person in the world she wants to spend time with…but such is life.  I look forward to the day when we can really reconnect. Until then I will come out here and sit, and reminisce, and count my blessings, until my husband gets tired of looking at it and hauls it off. 

I think getting lost in a moment is a good thing.

funny…

First of all you have to read this story, it’s a fluffin classic!

office fridge

Went to see “Star Trek” tonight with Stephan. I won’t spoil the movie but I will say that it was genuinly entertaining, and that  I enjoyed it more than “Batman Begins.” One of my favorite parts was when Leonard Nemoy says farewell to someone in the end, very witty.

Otherwise…my neck hurts and has been for a week and a half. I slept on it wrong and I have been paying for it ever since. I now use heat and a neck pillow and feel like an old lady.

Tomorrow is a work retreat and words cannot describe the joy I feel inside. The anticipation is killing me and I am like a bull at the rodeo just waiting to burst from the gate. I am eager, I am excited, I am anticipatory, I am lying…

Why won’t someone pay me to stay a home, take care of my kids, and tweet all day?

It is time for bed, my family is all asleep, and the vicodin is making me crazy…

Buenos Noches mi amigos

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