Little Red Demons


It’s not been 24 hours since giving up social media and already I have gone to the gutter. Searching my iPhone to and from for some kind of notification to garner. This morning it was The Weather Channel to oblige me and I eagerly clicked on 9 notifications that have been otherwise abandoned. They shouted out to me from the depths of disparaged technology and I rescued the app from the little red demons otherwise known as notifications. Yes, I was enlightened with weather updates from 9 places I have traveled and the emptiness still hangs heavy around me.

I wonder how many notifications I have?

I wonder if there are any snaps I am missing?

Who has commented on my staus or my photo?

When the 21 days are over, how many notifications will I have then?

Last night I said goodbye to all of my friends at midnight, desperately posting like a man heading for the gas chamber, random thoughts spewed onto places that aren’t real, thoughts for people I know and many I don’t. I had to be drug away from that place as few seconds remained of the old year and my family gathered to celebrate together…Just One MORE POST, I explained to them.

As much as it hurts this morning, to face this chasm between myself and the rest of the word, I feel a strange peace. Something calm. Something new.

I can breathe.

Day 1 isn’t over yet.



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About rolanda

Forty-something, married to a great guy with a stellar beard, we have 3 children, 2 granny babies and super cool son-in-law. I home school my kids because I love to be around them, I hope they turn out ok. I am a pediatric nurse and I live near the Kansas City area. I like vintage things. I love people, coffee and Jesus and I also love to write.
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